Posted by Tracey on April 29, 1999 at 06:47:15:
I dreamt that my friend was over visiting and my fiance was sitting right beside my friend. They looked cozy,but I pretended I didn't noticed. They my finace turned cheek to cheek with my friend and said "Lets show her how we kiss" and they did and it hurt but I tried to laugh it off but couldn't ,they both sat there staring at me for a reaction. I asked 'How long ?" My finace said for awhile. I then threw all his clothes and possessions outside in the rain and that he had to be off of my property within an hour as I was calling the police to escort him out.
I was mad and betrayed but near the end of the hour I was thinking about forgiving him and starting over as he seemed sorry. But then I was getting a feeling that maybe I'm being a pushover and too trusting. So I kept throwing stuff out and refused to look at him.
Now in real life...My fiance and my friend hardly know each other nevermind I don't see her often maybe once a month by myself while my fiance's working. We don't talk much on the phone either as we are both busy..with our own families.
I want to get marry eventhough it will be my third. But it feels right we are both honest and we both trust each other,we appreciate each others sense of humor I myself feel good in this relationship. I might feel jealous at times,because all in all he's a good guy. And I feel insecure at times as if I don't measure up and he'll leave. So I'm wondering if my subconcious playing up on me. This particular dream bothered me.